why i keep asking

i ask the same question to the ceiling“most nights,“and the ceiling, being a ceiling, says nothing,“and i take the nothing“as a kind of answer,“the way you take the sea not arguing“as a kind of blessing.“

i don't need to know why i'm here.“i've stopped needing that.“i just want to be here well —“to be the kind of alive“that would be missed by a plant,“a street, a specific dog,“one or two of the people“who let me sit at their table“and did not ask me to explain.“

that's the whole prayer now.“let me be missed by small things.“let me have been, while i was here,“here.“